We visited where we lost you last night, looking through the window we could see your room, I felt if we walked in you would still be there in bed, the wish of all that can't be. It can never get easier because you can't come back, your loving family are together strong but alone we are broken, it's a dark place in my head Mum but every now and then I can see you. Love you so much I wish my pain could exchange for just 1 minute with you. I know you live when we bring you alive in our memories and sorry for making you relive those last few days, these are the demons I can't take from thoughts. I hope you can feel the rain, breath the air and see the sun. If the God we wish for to be true lead you away I hope there's a heaven and Angels for you as the pain you had and fought against we now carry for rest of our days. Sweet dreams Mum, love you and miss you for ever, to the day I come to you sleep tight in peace. XXXX Craig